Visibly collapsing. Obvious and strategic with out knowing the desired destination. Flail arms to grab some sort of control. Pushes people away. Like a sinking swimming. Bricks for bones.
Enamored with purity. Whole acceptance. Excitement for a deeper understanding. That look. More whole. External fills internal. Limitless risks worth risk. Because, you have yourself. Always.
When you realize you already have everything (yourself), you are complete.